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| 1.Q |
Tell me
about the first time you remember being thrilled. |
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| 1.A |
A I was
in a pram on a ramp being pushed down by mom. I saw a white
hole in the dark sky(it was night time) and got a shock. asked
in some mumbly way what the hell that was and mom said very
slowly (very slowly): MOOOOOON……MOOOOOON |
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| 2.Q |
What’s the slightest thing
to have thrilled you? |
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| 2.A |
Changing
gears on my bike with the outmost precision. nice |
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| 3.Q |
What’s the most frightening
yet thrilling thing you’ve done? |
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| 3.A |
Being a
carpenter on scaffolds and making suspended floors with no harness. |
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| 4.Q |
Tell me
why you’re not completely sensible. |
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| 4.A |
I was a
macho man, but also I was nice to actually construct what I
was standing on, if that makes any sense. nice to close me eyes
at times and convince/trick myself that instead of above a several
feet drop, I was just standing on my bed. if you close your
eyes you could just be anywhere. |
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| 5.Q |
What’s
the most uninhibited thing you’ve ever done? |
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| 5.A |
Run naked
and drunk in the high street of a mountain resort in the Italian
Alps full of people wearing fur coats on Christmas Eve. |
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| 6.Q |
What have
you considered doing for pleasure but were too concerned about
the risks? |
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| 7.Q |
Describe
the event in one sentence (there’s time to expand later) |
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| 7.A |
Using a
hand catapult with a steel bull bearing aiming at the unknown |
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| 8.Q |
Tell me
a bit about yourself around this time. |
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| 8.A |
I was 13(?),
and was trying several times to smash the neighbours windows
with my latest catapult and also finding ways to understand
what it meant to feel responsibility towards others…. |
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| 9.Q |
List the
sequence of events leading up to your thrill. Try to remember
how you felt at each stage. The smallest detail could be important
(this is your chance to expand). |
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| 9.A |
First
I got my catapult and shot with steel bull bearings at the
windows in the house opposite. missed few times. felt bad
and unfulfilled. just wanted to hear that glass smash.
Second, thought about god and my Christian upbringing and,
well, felt a bit restricted in some sense. I got daring and
built a little courage to discover the unknown.
Third, I thought of the longest catapult throw I could do,
something unique and, well, thrilling enough. I saw a house,
another high rise, in the front of our house and decided to
throw beyond it and aim my bull bearing to go over it and
down into the street below. I felt good but hesitated and
wondered about God. but hey I had to do it, was getting very
excited.
Fourth, I just did it. tried to hear with trepidation the
sound of the bull bearing, ….. did not hit the house…..it
must have gone beyond it…….yes it has…..
……. ……. ….. it was too far away
to hear it land in the street below….i was so excited
and ….well. started feeling guilty and bad for my mom,
and for the possible victim of my throw…..listened with
fear for the possible sound of ambulances or police……luckily
nothing…..nothing…..all cool, but hey, was still
worried……
Fifth: that was the last time I threw bull bearings. never
told this story before, and I think doing that was a self
taught way of analysing the weird concept of human responsibility
and human boundaries.
no one was hurt in the making of this real story, and it is
recommended that you do not try this in the safety of your
lives/homes. |
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| 10.Q |
What were
your thoughts and feelings at the precise moment of thrill? |
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| 10.A |
Silence,
had to hear the bull bearing, wind, distance, I was taking a
risk, I followed that bull bearing trajectory so close, I felt
quite light and not really present, as if I wasn’t there.
maybe trying to blame someone else. but felt very light and
as if I had released a block inside, and also exploring the
world around you is quite nice. |
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| 11.Q |
What did
you do afterwards? |
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| 11.A |
Listened
to the news on tv and waited in total fear for the news of a
tragedy in the street of the bull bearing. luckily nothing came
up. |
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| 12.Q |
What were
the risks? |
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| 12.A |
Murder
and malicious damage |
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| 13.Q |
What did
you imagine other people thought of you during and after the
event? |
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| 13.A |
In jail,
even juvenile place, people would have not liked me |
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| 14.Q |
How often
do you think about the event, and why? |
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| 14.A |
Quite often,
if I think about responsibility and human boundaries |
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| 15.Q |
Some people
probably don’t understand how such a thing can thrill
you; explain it to them. |
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| 15.A |
It was
quite innocent of me at that age and well, I had to try it to
know better. the thrill was in the shot. it is such a light
feeling. you just follow the projected object with your whole
self. try archery pal. |
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| 16.Q |
What three
changes could have made the experience better, and why? |
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| 16.A |
a Chinese
hand-catapult master
b few smashed windows
c a prize for the best shot |
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Is there
anything you want to add? |
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Don’t
tell the Italian police and don’t judge me. |
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