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| 1.Q |
Tell me
about the first time you remember being thrilled. |
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| 1.A |
Age about
10 - I won a competition in my class at junior school to make
a design from the initials of my name. I was thrilled to win
because I was not popular at school, and had been bullied, but
this competition was voted for by others in the class and I
was thrilled they voted for me! |
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| 2.Q |
What’s the slightest thing
to have thrilled you? |
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| 2.A |
I am thrilled
every day by small shows of trust and affection from my son
(aged 7). |
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| 3.Q |
What’s the most frightening
yet thrilling thing you’ve done? |
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| 4.Q |
Tell me
why you’re not completely sensible. |
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| 4.A |
Every year
I take 6 weeks holiday at Disney World in Orlando, I become
a child again. |
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| 5.Q |
What’s
the most uninhibited thing you’ve ever done? |
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| 5.A |
Sex in
a broom cupboard! |
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| 6.Q |
What have
you considered doing for pleasure but were too concerned about
the risks? |
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| 6.A |
Everyday
stuff - for example I might consider going for a girlie night
out but decide not to go because I'm too worried about risks
to my self-esteem - I'll be the only one not to pull! |
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| 7.Q |
Describe
the event in one sentence (there’s time to expand later) |
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| 7.A |
I went
on the Rock & Roller coaster at Disney World. |
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| 8.Q |
Tell me
a bit about yourself around this time. |
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| 8.A |
I had just
lost a lot of weight, for the first time in ages I was feeling
physically reasonably fit, and my self-confidence was better
then it has ever been. |
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| 9.Q |
List the
sequence of events leading up to your thrill. Try to remember
how you felt at each stage. The smallest detail could be important
(this is your chance to expand). |
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| 9.A |
In 1999
went on holiday (as usual) to Disney World in Florida. I was
very heavy and unfit. I was depressed and had no self-confidence.
I was so big I could not fit into some of the rides, and felt
like an observer watching the rest of the world having fun.
I felt like I was letting my son down. I resolved to lose
weight. The Rock & Roller coaster became my symbol of
resolution – my motivation was to lose enough weight
to be able to go on the coaster. I wanted to be 'normal'.
Over the next 18 months I made a lot of changes in my life.
I lost a lot of weight. I was in the local paper and national
magazines as "Slimmer of the Year". By 2001 I was
ready to achieve my ambition. I had lost enough weight that
I did
not feel self-conscious all the time, and no longer had the
physical barriers to enjoying myself. I went to Disney World
and went on the Rock and Roller coaster. I hated the ride,
it made me feel sick, but it meant a lot to me to be able
to choose to do it. |
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| 10.Q |
What were
your thoughts and feelings at the precise moment of thrill? |
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| 10.A |
The moment
of thrill was not the ride itself, but sitting in the car waiting
for it to start. I felt that I finally I fitted in, I was normal!
A sense of achievement and belief in myself. |
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| 11.Q |
What did
you do afterwards? |
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| 11.A |
Sat on
a bench for 30 minutes to recover, I felt sick! |
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| 12.Q |
What were
the risks? |
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| 12.A |
This is
an inverted roller coaster, worries about an accident etc. Mostly
worried I would chicken out and not do the ride. |
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| 13.Q |
What did
you imagine other people thought of you during and after the
event? |
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| 13.A |
Nothing
- and that's an important point! After a lifetime of self-consciousness
and low self esteem all I saw were other people also enjoying
themselves, I didn't think anyone was noticing or laughing at
me. And I wouldn't have cared if they had. |
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| 14.Q |
How often
do you think about the event, and why? |
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| 14.A |
I think
about this quite often - a couple of times a week. I have an
ongoing battle with self-esteem and it's good to think abut
what I felt I achieved. |
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| 15.Q |
Some people
probably don’t understand how such a thing can thrill
you; explain it to them. |
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| 15.A |
It was
not about the ride itself, it was about being able to make the
choice to go on the ride, feeling like a 'normal' person and
'fitting in' with the rest of the world. |
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| 16.Q |
What three
changes could have made the experience better, and why? |
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| 16.A |
Only possibly
not getting sick afterwards. |
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Is there
anything you want to add? |
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You can
use this information in any way you wish, but please don't use
my real name! Good luck with your project.
Anon |
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